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okay
- Mood:
tired - Music:iPodee
I am thinking
so hard
so much
about it all
I just don't know
Is it right
or is it wrong?
It always hurts
It always gets me down
Why don't you get it
Why do you always get it wrong?
I am thinking
so hard
so much
I think
I will never know
I love you
so why does it hurt
and why do i confuse myself
unecessary thoughts
doubtful for the future
it seems so unclear now
Can I do it
Am i made for it
Will i survive it
Thought that it was meant for me
but now im not so sure
I am thinking
so hard
so much
what am i thinking?
im not even sure
anymore
No sleeping
No breathing
No love
No smiling
No laughing
No happiness
No joy
Cutting
crying
starving
hating
Sitting
staring
into space
nothing else
i want nothing more
If you're not here
Would the world stop spinning
If I asked it too..
Would the sun refuse to rise
Would time stand still
Just for little me
If my life broke down to a crumb
Would it all stop for me?
I'm a piece of dust
and nothing more
But would it stop if i asked it to?
I stare into space and nothing moves
nothing matters anymore
My heart no longer beats
My eyelids no longer close to blink
The only movement, a flow of water down my cheek
The birds no longer sing
the trees no longer sway
The insects make no noise
No dogs bark anymore
It's frozen
Clocks no longer tick
No breathing
Babies no longer cry
No feeling
Engines no longer running
No living
Time has stopped for me
My life is frozen
to this exact moment
reliving inside my head
the moment my heart broke
Would the world stop spinning
If I asked it to?
Cause if my world is frozen
why should i be the only one?
trying to convince me
I'm listening
I'm just not seeing it
I would love to believe
but my heart and brain refuse
they have learnt from the past
they don't trust love anymore
They can't take it anymore
Sometimes I think yes
and sometimes i think no
But you can't understand
Not the way I do
You and me may be different
but the pain will be the same
The situation might be different
but the ending will be the same
I can already see it
I have seen it
I already know
You're breaking my heart, dear
You Will Love Me "Forever"
if you stay or if you go
But if you go
I can't afford to love you
I'm the only one you want
The only one you'll ever see
You'll come back for me
But, my love. I can't afford to wait
You'll come back to me
and you wont find me how i was before
You will find me broken down
and if you claim to love me still
you will also be broken
The damage of us being apart
proving to be irrepairable
But you won't come back for me
You can't come back for me
So you see, i'm listening
I can hear you so well
I'm just not seeing it...
Once Upon A Time
Left to drown and suffocate
To feel I deserved this dreadful fate
All this only led to hate
No one to save me, it was too late
I was left to drown
Once Upon A Time
The air taken from me
My vision blurred so i can't see
The one meant to keep me standing
let me fall, with no soft landing
I was left alone
Once Upon A Time
The light burned out
and there was only darkness
darkness that surrounded me
darkness was all I could be
Darkness, darkness, let it in
Breathe it in
It's your only friend now
All this happened to me
Once Upon A Time
Don't let it happen again
Don't let it be
Don't let the knife be forced into my heart
twisted, bleeding, torn apart
Oh, don't let it be
Don't let it happen to me
- Mood:
worried
- Mood: tired
I want them all to want me
I want them all to worship me
I want them all to give their lives for me
Yeah, cause thats me
I'm greedy
I'm selfish
I want it all
Give it to me
I want them all to praise me
I want them all to kiss me
I want them all to hold me
I want them to embrace me
Yeah, cause thats me
i'm greedy
im selfish
I want it all
Give it to me
I want them all to love my body
I want them all to make me number 1
I want them all to think im beautiful
i want them all to love everything about me
Yeah, cause thats me
im greedy
im selfish
i want it all
Give it to me
I want them to hold me
I want them to kiss me
I want them to want me
I want them to love me
- Mood:
depressed
where would I go?
Would I break down on the floor
curl up in a ball
nothing left but tears
nothing left of me
a part of me has gone
and i'll never get it back
If you said you didn't love me anymore
What would I do?
Would I hate you for the rest of my life
my heart break at the mention of your name
my eyes close with fustration
whenever my future is mentioned
as it would be a future without you
If you took your hand to me
what would I say
would i be speechless
would i hurt you back
would i scream and run away
would i tell you that i love you
and let you do it again and again
If you i woke up and you weren't there
how would i feel
would i be terrified
would i be paranoid
would I look for you
would i assume the worst
would I move on
What would I do?
I have no clue
do you?
the room grows icey cold
i can see my breath
She floats around aimlessly
something tells me she's not done with life
I don't know where she came from
I don't know who she is
I don't know why she's here
But only I can see her
No one else believes me
No one else can see
No one else knows
She whispers to me as I sleep
I can barely hear what she says
but it makes me shiver down my spine
Goose pimples rise from my skin
and my hair stands on end
She doesn't stay for long
she disappeares when the sun arises
she leaves a cold feeling in my heart
leaving her mark until she returns
Something tells me she has a task to complete
One night she visits me
and wakes me from my slumber
she tells me of her mission
tells me what she needs to do
it makes me shudder
as she tells me
she is here for me
She has been sent to take my soul
to tear my heart from my body
to take me away from my life
and send me to a better place
I was not meant for life on earth
not as a human
soon i shall be like her
icey cold and no one can see me
except those whose lives i shall take
Now I am cold
Now I am alone
Now I am on a mission
Now i am death
and i shall not be missed
- Mood: tired
